Hate You, Hate me more

I was thinking of what to write?

That how I am coping from depression

after the best friend left

Or how I begged and I begged until my self-esteem broke

Wait for this one is best, should I write about how unworthy

Unwanted a person can make you feel

so that you start believing you can never be good for anyone.

And top of it when you are juggling with your broken inside

Your mom want you to marry a Good Guy.

Don’t start with me about the definition of a good guy.

Why doesn’t everything go still?

And I sit inside with a book in my hand

I am not against this marriage stuff

but shouldn’t I wait first and fall in love!

I love peace and anything brighter hurts.

In this game of what to do and what should be skipped?

I have nothing good to write.

 

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PS: My ex-best friend is the best human being, just the timing went off. I had many reasons to become depressed this one incident just made me realize I needed help to shape up my life. So if you feel nothing is working out you can always talk to me. There is nothing to be ashamed of, it doesn’t mean one had mental problems.